I'm Not Afraid to Show My Face!

A sister posted an interesting post about photos online. Nobody here knows my full name or where I specifically live (the city I list is the greater metropolitan area. . . the "Reno area" consists of two towns and various "census designated places." I have lived in two towns and one "census designated place," but I won't go blabbing my specific location in a big public setting. And interesting fact: I am in my fourth home in the area, and I've lived here for less than three years. Mmmm.)

I honestly don't fear people making me into porn or whatever. If they do, then they are being sick and creepy (what the hell, THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME), and that's their business. It is in no way my fault.

The only reason why you don't see a lot of my face on this blog is because I have recently puffed up like a campfire marshmallow, and I'm feeling very self-conscious.

SO, I'm going to post my photos from SEPTEMBER and DECEMBER. I wasn't as fat then.


My scarf got really loose after jumping around in a bouncy castle. If only I was joking.


I was very proud of this outfit. (: The skirt and top were both black and I wore a white undershirt, plus blue shoes which matched the bandana. Eeee.

You'll notice I am wearing hijab. I will be an "internet hijabi" until further notice. While I am not yet comfortable with hijab, I do plan to wear it someday, insha Allah. I definitely believe in it. :B

In Reply to Banana Anne. . .

Insha'Allah, we will both have the courage to tell our families as soon as possible.
I don't think I ever mentioned this on this blog, but I told my parents when I first converted, and they threw a fit and nearly threw me out of the house. Sooo, THAT is why I keep it a secret. I'll tell them when I'm independent and I'll hope they don't disown me.

One of these days, could you maybe write a post on how you get around praying and fasting without your family finding out? I would love to hear about that.
I didn't. -Shame.- I prayed when my family wasn't home, but my dad was around home a LOT when I still lived there, so that meant I didn't pray like at all, except on rare occasions. I started to pray regularly when I moved out, which was before Ramadan, alhamdulillah! I also went to Jumma for the first time after moving out. I'm very bad at sneaking around and lying, so um. . . I didn't. . . .

Also, do you wear hijab when your parents are around? I am assuming you don't
I don't wear hijab, period. I wear it when I'm around only Muslims (like, I wore it at the Eid party I went to), but I don't wear it when around my parents, or even if not. We live in a fairly small city, so even if I'm not technically seeing them, they could run into me, or someone we both know could. It's too dangerous. I do, however, dress modestly. I dress like a non-abaya hijabi would, just without the scarf. I wear long sleeve tops and either long skirts or long tops/short dresses over pants. When I visit my parents, I dress in whatever I know they would feel is appropriate for the season. . If it's warm, I wear short sleeves, but ONLY for when I'm there. I also don't wear dresses over pants when around them because my mom thinks it makes me look homeless. I'm sure she knows I still do it, but I don't do it in front of her because OMG I MIGHT EMBARRASS HER! My parents don't object to my love for maxi skirts, though.

If I do end up leaving the country for the summer, I plan to wear it. I'll take it off for touristy photos, since I know they'll expect photos, but I'll keep it on otherwise. Hoping this happens. (:

The following picture was NOT drawn by me, and I don't know who drew it, and I can remove it if it's yours and you object. I think it's a good picture:

Kind of a cross between these.