tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32049214604583605342024-02-08T10:48:55.837-08:00White Anglo-Saxon MuslimThe secret life of a Muslim convert.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-16639595609385063262010-03-20T02:41:00.000-07:002010-03-20T02:58:32.791-07:00Survey I Stumbled Upon (:<div face="trebuchet ms" style="font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><strong style="font-style: italic;">Name:</strong> Maddie/Madison<br /></div><div face="trebuchet ms" style="font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Age:</strong> 19</div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Location:</strong> Northern Nevada, USA<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Background:</strong> Ethnically? I don't know much about my heritage, but I know I have some English, Irish, Greek, Finnish, and I think Dutch. I'm typical American: big giant mutt.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Spouse (if so, name and background):</strong><br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">How long have you been married?</strong><br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Kids?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I wish.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Are you a revert?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Yep!<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you been to Hajj or Umrah?</strong> Not yet.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">How many masaajid have you been to?</strong> Just the local one. . . I don't get out much.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever been involved with a masjid?</strong> I signed up for the youth council but never heard anything since. :/<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Who are some of your favorite lectures by?</strong> Don't have any right now, but I'd love recommendations!<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Who are some of your favorite recitors? </strong>See above (: My Arabic teacher had a beautiful recitation playing once before class. I forgot who did it. ):<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><strong><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Some of your favorite Islamic books?</span> Recommendations, please?<br /></strong></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Describe your most memorable Eid:</strong> The only Eid where I did anything was last Eid Ul-fitr. I ate and played in a blowup castle, like all eighteen year olds.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">When did you first start fasting?</strong> Umm, the day after converting. It was Ramadan, so.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">When did you start hijab?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I haven't yet.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's your usual outift like when you go out?</strong> Long shirt with baggy pants, shirt and long skirt, long dress with a jacket. It depends on my mood.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What do you like about blogging?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I can't explain it, but I really just love reading blogs.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Describe your first feelings wearing hijab</strong><br /><strong>Very self-conscious.</strong> I was also very paranoid that a family member would see me and explode.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">How do you pin your hijab?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I like the typical rectangular scarf, or the square with one tail behind the head and one tail at the shoulder. . . Like how they do it in southeast Asia, I think?<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong></strong><strong></strong><strong style="font-style: italic;">What was on the last prayer mat you made salah on?</strong> A masjid. If it's an important one I should know of, I feel dumb.<br /><br /><strong><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">What's your ideal iftar?</span></strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I don't like dates, so I usually try to break my fast with something else sweet and chewy like skittles, and water. Then I eat whatever I have lying around for my meal.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What type of adhaan really gets to you?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>The Makkan one.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's something that annoys you at Jummah:</strong> All the people who walk in late, or the women who put their hijab on while sitting in the prayer hall. Huh?<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What was the last surah you read? (not recited in salah)</strong> The Calf. Behiiind. I'm trying to pronounce it in Arabic, so it's slow going.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Do you dry yourself after wudu?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>That depends on if I'm going to roll my sleeves back down immediately, whether it's cold or hot, etc.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Do you brush your teeth for fajr salah?</strong> Not generally, unless I'm fasting.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Whats the last Islamic thing you've been involved with?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I don't know.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What was the last convention you went to?</strong> I haven't been yet. ):<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever been part of an Islamic matrimonial site?</strong> Yes, and I found a guy there that sounds like my soul mate LOL, but I forgot which site it was and I don't know if he ever responded to my contact request. ):<br />Seriously, the dude was a revert from the bay area of Northern California. He's a year older than me and is majoring in linguistics with hopes of traveling and teaching English abroad. Sigh.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What color is the rug in the masjid you usually attend?</strong> Uhhh, greenish?<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Is the masjid you usually attend separated?</strong> Sort of. We don't have a separate room, but we do sit/pray behind the men, in a little enclave.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever stood in a minbar?</strong> No.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever washed a dead body before?</strong> No.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's the last thing you ate in the masjid?</strong> I forget.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Where's the strangest place you've seen a Muslim working?</strong> A non-halal pizza parlor. Although I didn't so much see it as I did live it. Do live it. I can't find another job yet, sadly. ): Hoping to.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever posted a flier in the masjid?</strong> No.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Rate your masjid's bathroom:</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>It's. . . okay?<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">Have you ever used a bidet for istinja?</span>:</strong> No, but that sounds so convenient! Actually, I want a fancy Japanese toilet.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's the weirdest thing that happened to you in salah?</strong> I can't think of anything.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">Isn't it annoying when the imam tells everyone to shut off their cell phones and someone's phone rings in the middle of salah?</strong> YES.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's some of the best halal food you've had (from a non Muslim country)?</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> . . . </span>Pineapple and olive pizza from Round Table? I just had some today, hehe. There are no halal restaurants in my area.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What was it like when you found out skittles were haram?</strong> I was sad, then I looked on the counters a week or two later and found out that Mars had recently made a transition into gelatin-free Skittles. I was happpyyy. (: It was like I was missing the candy for my whole life, not for a week LOL. Some sizes still have gelatin, though I haven't seen a normal-size bag with gelatin in like a year. I think the only sizes at risk are the big bags at the gas stations and stuff. Even the mini-sizes sold for Halloween are vegetarian!<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's something haram that you think most people don't know?</strong> Talking. When. The. Imam. Is. PREACHING.<br /></div><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold;" align="justify"><br /><strong style="font-style: italic;">What's the craziest hijabi fashion you've seen?</strong> A cap-sleeve T-shirt and cargo capris. . . With a beanie. ):<br /></div><br /><strong style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">What did you like about this survey??</strong><span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Good way to spend your early morning?<br /></span>Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-1183593545606814092010-03-19T12:54:00.001-07:002010-03-19T13:00:11.287-07:00Lazy<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/targetwillbemyhusband052.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/targetwillbemyhusband052.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />Things I need to do:<br />laundry<br />exercise<br />an essay on a book I haven't even finished yet FML<br /><br />Things I am doing:<br />nothing<br />also, Pokemon Soul Silver.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-41816057512074457032010-03-19T12:34:00.000-07:002010-03-19T12:37:10.211-07:00Old Navy Set!<div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=17009179"><img width="400" alt="Old Navy" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFm9FeGZjSTR6M3hHRkNBcXN6QTVQbFEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Old Navy" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=17009179">Old Navy</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/shop?brand=Old+Navy">Old Navy </a></small></div><br/><div style="font-size:0.75em"><b>Items in this set: </b><br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_cross-front_knit/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13163591">Old Navy Womens Cross-Front Knit Dresses</a>, $15<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_goodnight_nora/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13055527">Old Navy Womens Goodnight Nora Stretch Crew-Neck Tees</a>, $10<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_distressed_double-pocket/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13066091">Old Navy Womens Distressed Double-Pocket Cargos</a>, $35<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_ribbon-trim_ballet/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13740109">Old Navy Womens Ribbon-Trim Ballet Flats</a>, $13<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_perfect_canvas/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=14408989">Old Navy Womens Perfect Canvas Totes</a>, $10</div><br /><br />Every single item on here was ripped from OldNavy.com. I looove that store! The dress is actually pretty long if you have a short figure, but they have petite sizes online. (: I think below-the-knee is awkward over pants, so if I bought this, I would definitely buy it so it fit a bit above the knee, hehe. <br /><br />I went shopping there yesterday and bought a tunic that I can't find online and some jeans that were on clearance. All the wide-leg khakis were full price, and the cargos were full price at 35$. Sadness. I need some lightweight cargos. . . I have cargo shorts and capris, but I obviously can't wear those out anymore.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-66751621031195872672010-03-13T11:37:00.000-08:002010-03-13T11:41:56.485-08:00One Dress, Two WaysI honestly don't change my outside wear into inside wear very often, and if I do. . . PJs. Sometimes, however, I just take off my undershirt and replace my pants with comfy leggings. It makes for comfy loungewear without looking too sloppy! I like looking nice sometimes, despite the fact only one person can ever see me at home, and she rarely does. Haha. <br /><br /><div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/summer_outfit/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16834906"><img width="400" alt="Summer Outfit" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFlFsdVJhTll1M3hHU29Ldl81SXB5YUEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Summer Outfit" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/summer_outfit/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16834906">Summer Outfit</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/shop?brand=Old+Navy">Old Navy </a></small></div><br /><br /><div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16835264"><img width="400" alt=":B" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFjNqMzNDZGd1M3hHWWFtVUM1WXB5YUEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title=":B" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16835264">:B</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/ugg_australia_shoes/shop?brand=UGG+Australia&category_id=41">UGG Australia shoes</a></small></div><br />These leggings look cool. . . They're like leggings and a slip all in one! Awesome, right? I totally want a pair.<br /><br />You'll notice I use Old Navy a lot in my sets. Why? Because they're awesome! Most of my undershirts are from there, plus my wide-legged pants and the occasional jacket or dress. Loooooove them!Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-10666213365749344642010-03-13T10:40:00.000-08:002010-03-13T10:41:21.997-08:00New Blog<a href="http://wasmfoodiary.blogspot.com/">Food Diary!!!</a><br /><br />I'm way behind on the trend, heh heh. :D I can understand if no one reads this. I just think keeping something like this public will motivate me more, you know? Toodles.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-55568912639595691082010-03-13T02:33:00.000-08:002010-03-13T02:34:31.359-08:00Hilarious, mashaAllah!I'm worried that if I keep posting so much, I'll soon run out of ideas!<br />Anyway, I LOVE this video:<br /><br /><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/k-Nq4NUBrOA&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/k-Nq4NUBrOA&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br />I was laughing pretty early on, and as I saw the words "Witr Without You," the sound on my computer decided to die completely. Ironic, I suppose. I freaked out and watched it on my laptop. . . I might be a bit biased, but I think Witr Without You was the funniest ahahhahaa. :DMaddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-82320670794219557562010-03-13T02:04:00.000-08:002010-03-13T02:12:23.369-08:00I'm Not Afraid to Show My Face!A sister posted an interesting post about photos online. Nobody here knows my full name or where I specifically live (the city I list is the greater metropolitan area. . . the "Reno area" consists of two towns and various "census designated places." I have lived in two towns and one "census designated place," but I won't go blabbing my specific location in a big public setting. And interesting fact: I am in my fourth home in the area, and I've lived here for less than three years. Mmmm.)<br /><br />I honestly don't fear people making me into porn or whatever. If they do, then they are being sick and creepy (what the hell, THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME), and that's their business. It is in no way my fault. <br /><br />The only reason why you don't see a lot of my face on this blog is because I have recently puffed up like a campfire marshmallow, and I'm feeling very self-conscious. <br /><br />SO, I'm going to post my photos from SEPTEMBER and DECEMBER. I wasn't as fat then.<br /><br /><a href="http://s19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/?action=view¤t=EEIIIDDDDDDhearts035-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/EEIIIDDDDDDhearts035-1.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"></a><br />My scarf got really loose after jumping around in a bouncy castle. If only I was joking. <br /><br /><a href="http://s19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/?action=view¤t=december031.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/december031.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"></a><br />I was very proud of this outfit. (: The skirt and top were both black and I wore a white undershirt, plus blue shoes which matched the bandana. Eeee. <br /><br />You'll notice I am wearing hijab. I will be an "internet hijabi" until further notice. While I am not yet comfortable with hijab, I do plan to wear it someday, insha Allah. I definitely believe in it. :BMaddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-42080725773721613372010-03-12T15:44:00.001-08:002010-03-12T15:54:36.261-08:00Israel/Palestine<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.crossed-flag-pins.com/Friendship-Pins/Israel/Flag-Pins-Israel-Palestine.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 320px;" src="http://www.crossed-flag-pins.com/Friendship-Pins/Israel/Flag-Pins-Israel-Palestine.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />LOLLLL, making up for lost time by spamming your feeds. :D <br /><br />I've always been put off by the Israel/Palestine issue. I feel bad for those dying on both sides, and I find it hard to choose sides. I know as a Muslim, I should support Palestine, and I guess I do. . . But the way I see it, there IS no wrong or right in war. Both sides attack and are attacked. There is no such thing as an innocent side in a war.<br /><br />I of course know why Muslims feel that Palestine is best, and Israel is being evil. I do. And I have spoken to non-Muslims WHO AGREE THAT WHAT ISRAEL DID WAS WRONG. I was actually talking about it to my (non-Muslim) room mate once, and she said, "Well, it's very messed up that they took the land because of some treaty agreement that the landowners weren't involved in, and then kicked everyone out of their rightful homes" or something like that. I was pretty baffled. I had never met a non-Muslim who didn't support zionism 100%, honestly. <br />And she wasn't even agreeing with me, either. She said that all on her own, after I stated that I didn't know what to make of the situation.<br /><br />So yes. I think what happened was messed up. . . But I also think the propaganda featured on Palestinian TV (CHILDREN SHOWS, EVEN) is really messed up. And I'm really sick of Muslims using this as an excuse to hate Israelis and even Jews in other lands. What if everyone hated every American, because of our obsession with imposing our ideals on other people? What if everyone hated all white people with ancestors involved in colonization? <br /><br />Jewish people are people of the book, and they are to be respected as such. I wish more Muslims could realize this.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-55529116501421531562010-03-12T15:27:00.000-08:002010-03-12T15:35:13.825-08:00Prayers TodayA brother recently passed on, so we held his janaza prayers immediately after the jummah prayers. It was my second funeral ever, and my first Muslim funeral. The steps of the prayer were described briefly (and quickly) before we prayed, and I KNOW I didn't do it right. So I just followed the actions and made a bunch of du'a, since I didn't know what else to do.<br /><br />The sniffing and the tear-stained faces broke my heart. I didn't know the brother, but he apparently did a LOT of good for the Northern Nevada Muslim community, and he was a decent man all around. I wanted to cry, despite never meeting him, because the despair of those around me just broke my heart.<br /><br />On the way out, I actually saw people I know go to the masjid, but I just have never seen. . . Like my Arabic teacher, and a barista at the campus Starbucks. (: That was kinda neat.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-11412073957730611022010-03-12T12:48:00.000-08:002010-03-12T15:27:39.224-08:00This is Becoming a Styless Fashion BlogOne bandana, two ways:<br /><br /><div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/bluuuue_casual/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16802733"><img width="400" alt="Bluuuue Casual" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFlF1SWZzeEl1M3hHVGZ3alpmMlVUZGcAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Bluuuue Casual" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/bluuuue_casual/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16802733">Bluuuue Casual</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/converse_shoes/shop?brand=Converse&category_id=41">Converse shoes</a></small></div><br/><div style="font-size:0.75em"><b>Items in this set: </b><br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_raw-hem_jersey/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=11790277">Old Navy Womens Raw-Hem Jersey Dresses</a>, $15<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/floral_burnout_long_sleeve_tee/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=12026937">Floral Burnout Long Sleeve Tee</a>, $9.99<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_flirt_wide-leg/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13069832">Old Navy Womens The Flirt Wide-Leg Trouser Jeans</a>, $35<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/converse_all_star_shoe/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=12050544">Converse All Star Shoe</a>, $41<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/solid_pashmina/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=14510910">Solid Pashmina</a>, $18</div><br />As an underscarf. . . If the shark worries you, I would fold it in so it's not on display. I think it's about intention, and I love the bandana for the umbrellas, honestly! So cute. (:<br /><br />As a bandana for in-house wear:<br /><div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/wheee/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16802657"><img width="400" alt="Wheee" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFlhISHRSaEl1M3hHdW1KcllmMlVUZGcAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Wheee" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/wheee/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16802657">Wheee</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/hello_kitty_tops/shop?brand=Hello+Kitty&category_id=11">Hello Kitty tops</a></small></div><br/><div style="font-size:0.75em"><b>Items in this set: </b><br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/hot_topic_search_results_for/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=14112530">Hot Topic Search - Search Results for hello kitty</a>, $25<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/hot_topic_search_results_for/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13325138">Hot Topic Search - Search Results for green</a>, $5<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_diva_boot-cut/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13112877">Old Navy Womens The Diva Boot-Cut Jeans</a>, $35<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/sweater_knit_slippers/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=11694512">Sweater Knit Slippers</a>, $6.80<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/ties_bandanas_scarves_accessories/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=9177392">Ties / Bandanas / Scarves | Accessories</a>, $4.99</div><br /><br />I know my at-home wear is really kinda blah, but that's the kind of clothing I like, and I doubt I'm the only one in existence. .. SOMEONE ought to like it, right? Anyway, I love sweatbands. I loooove whipping them out in the summer time when I'm wearing short sleeves at home. . . And my feet are ALWAYS COLD, so here are some cute slippers, hehe. <br />Be sure to change out of the Hello Kitty top before prayer. :B <br /><br />Off to jummah prayers! Bye!Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-68827630974217651232010-03-10T09:54:00.000-08:002010-03-10T09:56:36.529-08:00Seperate Post for this Bad Boy<div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/lol_wut/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16748466"><img width="400" alt="LOL WUT" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFldqenk3RzBzM3hHWVZwLVZmMlVUZGcAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="LOL WUT" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/lol_wut/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16748466">LOL WUT</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/shop?brand=Old+Navy">Old Navy </a></small></div><br/><div style="font-size:0.75em"><b>Items in this set: </b><br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_plus_layered-tier/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=14949797">Old Navy Womens Plus Layered-Tier Jersey Dresses</a>, $30<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/womens_ae_classic_denim_jacket/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=15189510">Women's AE Classic Denim Jacket - American Eagle Outfitters</a>, $40<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy_womens_flirt_wide-leg/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13069828">Old Navy Womens The Flirt Wide-Leg Trouser Jeans</a>, $35<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/converse_chuck_taylor_all_star/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=15033226">CONVERSE Chuck Taylor All Star Low Womens Shoes</a>, $45<br/><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/east_paisley_print_jacquard_scarf/thing?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=13430592">East Paisley Print Jacquard Scarf, Mid Indigo</a>, 18 GBP</div><br /><br />Inspired by my favorite Pokemon Dragonair, because HeartGold and SoulSilver are coming out soon! :D :D :D <br /><br />I am such a geek.<br /><br />Also, I love denim. I find it hard to live without denim. I often wear jeans with a jean jacket and find myself asking, "Did I fall out of the denim tree?" If there is a denim tree, I want to live in there, squirrel style.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-87969751435170351932010-03-10T09:23:00.000-08:002010-03-10T09:37:05.091-08:00Another One + Inside Wear :D<div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/turquoise_lime_green_lt/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16748141"><img width="400" alt="Turquoise and Lime Green = &lt;3" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFk5rYmVhR3NzM3hHZ1FYWlBnR1VUZGcAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Turquoise and Lime Green = &lt;3" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/turquoise_lime_green_lt/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16748141">Turquoise and Lime Green = </a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/american_apparel_dresses/shop?brand=American+Apparel&category_id=3">American Apparel dresses</a></small></div><br /><div><br /><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/bright_colors_ftw/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16747948"><img alt="Bright Colors FTW (:" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFnBqMXlwbWtzM3hHbUZTZkc1SXB5YUEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Bright Colors FTW (:" border="0" height="400" width="400" /></a><br /><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/bright_colors_ftw/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16747948">Bright Colors FTW (:</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/roxy_tops/shop?brand=Roxy&category_id=11">Roxy tops</a></small></div><br /><br />Coloorrrsss.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-73734766247585689412010-03-09T14:53:00.000-08:002010-03-09T15:04:30.420-08:00LulzFrom never posting to posting always.<br /><br />I'm looking at photos from when I last went to Walt Disney World. . . We got hit by a tropical storm, but I was actually thankful for that: we got plain rain and wind instead of the typical Florida weather! I fear thunderstorms big time, so.<br /><br />Besides the obvious fun, I was really interested in Islam at this time (it was about a month and a half before I finally converted), and there were quite a few Muslim families! I got excited every time I saw one, hehe! My parents thought I was such a weirdo, but I guess they understand what it was now, hahahaha.<br /><br />I was also MUCH thinner than I am now. Like, twenty pounds? I'm going to try to lose weight again, insha Allah. Any tips for someone who lives on her own and eats ramen, and who eats pizza because of her horrible job? With a huge sweet tooth? Who am I kidding? I'm screwed, haha.<br /><br />I want to post photos, but I'm wearing bermuda shorts or capris with short sleeves in every single photo. . . Soooo. That's a lot to edit out, ghetto-style.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v345/215/4/666200404/n666200404_4437579_2082.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 387px; height: 290px;" src="http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v345/215/4/666200404/n666200404_4437579_2082.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />Fairly covered? In transparent material? I really look hideous here, hahaha. The boy is my then 11, now 13 year old half-brother. (: The baby I keep posting about is his full-blooded sibling. I don't have any of those.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v345/215/4/666200404/n666200404_4437834_3217.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 354px; height: 471px;" src="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v345/215/4/666200404/n666200404_4437834_3217.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />LOLZ.<br /><br />I hope no one minds me posting pictures of him here. I haven't even posted which state he lives in, haha. :D If it's an issue, I'll delete it. . .Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-86222280949457901432010-03-09T14:34:00.000-08:002010-03-09T14:36:48.323-08:00More of David!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://hphotos-snc1.fbcdn.net/hs163.snc1/6090_1135297956028_1634719905_336843_4223414_n.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 391px; height: 293px;" src="http://hphotos-snc1.fbcdn.net/hs163.snc1/6090_1135297956028_1634719905_336843_4223414_n.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />This is what he looked like when I last saw him, almost five months ago (OMG ;_;). He was so skinny then!!! Anyway, this was right after his first laugh (which was all my doing (;). That's my hand. Omgz.<br /><br />I have pictures WITH him, but they have short sleeves. .. And there's one where you can only see my head. . . I don't wear hijab right now, but in case I start to in the future, I'm holding off on putting pictures of me bare-headed in such a public setting. :B I do feel I'll wear hijab one day, so. . .Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-25491571917251819922010-03-09T13:50:00.000-08:002010-03-09T14:40:56.593-08:00Another Outfit<div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/checked_outfit/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16728158"><img alt="Checked Outfit" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFnhnT290c1VyM3hHTWpmbnY1SXB5YUEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Checked Outfit" border="0" height="400" width="400" /></a><br /><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/checked_outfit/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16728158">Checked Outfit</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/shop?brand=Old+Navy">Old Navy </a></small></div><br /><br />This one featuring a cute checked shirt-dress and a Hello Kitty purse from Hot Topic. (: Something I would wear (I actually have an outfit that is very similar).<br /><br /><a href="http://s19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/?action=view&current=maddiewentshopping011-1-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b159/oddspongeout/maddiewentshopping011-1-1.jpg" alt="Photobucket" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /></span>Lulz, my version. Obviously blacked out arms and neck ftw! I generally wear this top with black flats and a headband with white Mickey head silhouettes. I'm just that hip.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-76180353960106410842010-03-08T10:30:00.001-08:002010-03-08T10:33:50.435-08:00Baby David :♥<a href="http://hphotos-snc3.fbcdn.net/hs239.snc3/22636_1249665815153_1634719905_621580_2555567_n.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 435px; height: 326px;" src="http://hphotos-snc3.fbcdn.net/hs239.snc3/22636_1249665815153_1634719905_621580_2555567_n.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />My baby brother is cuter than any other baby ever.<br />That is all. (:Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-67542084161915876902010-03-08T09:07:00.001-08:002010-03-08T09:21:13.685-08:00OMGGG POSTINGSorry for being so dead, chicas! I've been so slammed. I've been working 30+ hours a week, on top of the equivalent of 18 credits in school (though four of those are just put in there to show you the workload: the Arabic class at my university is not for credit). I really do want to be active in this blog, and keep with the new theme I decided on, but I just don't have the time! Also, my camera is missing its memory card adapter, and my phone is no longer responding to chargers, but that's another issue entirely.<br /><br />I'm going to post today about FASHION!<br /><br />I absolutely love "boyfriend" style clothing. It's loose and long, perfect for a modest woman. And the best part is, boyfriend style clothing isn't frilly! I'm really into the tomboy chic style, and I get sick of wearing flowery lacy dresses over my pants, or a T-shirt with a long peasant skirt. It was fun for a while, but it's really not me. I can only handle so much frill before I want to rip my hair out.<br /><br />I really wish I had some jeans, a blazer, a camp shirt, etc. . . I love the tomboyish clothing with a feminine edge. I do have a sweater right now, though, and I LOVE it!<br /><br />My outfit today looks something like this:<br /><div><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/few_frills/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16697350"><img width="400" alt="Few Frills" src="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-set/BQcDAAAAAwoDanBnAAAABC5vdXQKFl9oR29TOVlxM3hHb0NhenM1SXB5YUEAAAACaWQKAWUAAAAEc2l6ZQ.jpg" title="Few Frills" height="400" border="0" /></a><br/><small><a href="http://www.polyvore.com/few_frills/set?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=16697350">Few Frills</a> by <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?.embedder=405059&.mid=embed&id=405059">oddspongeout</a> featuring <a href="http://www.polyvore.com/old_navy/shop?brand=Old+Navy">Old Navy </a></small></div><br /><br />(: I'm wearing the pashmina around my neck for a) warmth b) protection from the loose sweater falling off my shoulders, but if you're at the right stage, it could also work for a hijab! I'd suggest a navy underscarf, if that was your goal.<br /><br />Haha, that was fun. But don't expect this to turn into a fashion blog, you hear?Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-46928381520999575872010-02-10T00:18:00.000-08:002010-02-10T00:22:14.188-08:00New Idea?I'm thinking about making this one of those silly blogs with a lot of photos and stuff, that is pretty much about the random things in life. I need to find an adapter for my camera's memory card, of course, but. . . :D<br /><br />Totally serious and mature is not my thing. I want to update this often, and not monthly.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-10511669064544646952010-02-10T00:07:00.000-08:002010-02-10T00:09:31.056-08:00"Breathe" // U216th of June, nine-oh-five, door bell rings<br />Man at the door says if I want to stay alive a bit longer<br />There's a few things I need you to know<br />Three<br /><br />Coming from a long line of<br />Traveling sales people on my mother's side<br />I wasn't gonna buy just anyone's cockatoo<br />So why would I invite a complete stranger into my home<br />Would you<br /><br />These days are better than that<br />These days are better than that<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Every day I die again, and again I'm reborn</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Every day I have to find the courage</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> To walk out into the street</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> With arms out</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Got a love you can't defeat</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Neither down nor out</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> There's nothing you have that I need</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> I can breathe</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Breathe now</span><br /><br />16th of June, Chinese stocks are going up<br />And I'm coming down with some new Asian virus<br />Ju Ju man, Ju Ju man<br />Doc says you're fine, or dying<br />Please<br />Nine-oh-nine, St. John Divine on the line, my pulse is fine<br />But I'm running down the road like loose electricity<br />While the band in my head plays a striptease<br /><br />The roar that lies on the other side of silence<br />The forest fire that is fear so deny it<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Walk out into the street</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Sing your heart out</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> The people we meet </span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Will not be drowned out</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> There's nothing you have that I need</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> I can breathe</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Breathe now</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Yeah, yeah</span><br /><br />We are people borne of sound<br />The songs are in our eyes<br />Gonna wear them like a crown<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Walk out, into the sunburst street </span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> Sing your heart out, sing my heart out</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 204, 204);"> <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(153, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" >I've found grace inside a sound</span></span><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 102, 102);font-size:100%;" ><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 102);"> I found grace, it's all that I found</span></span><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 102, 102);font-size:100%;" ><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> And I can breathe</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> Breathe now </span></span>Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-19040016157473105782010-01-12T13:59:00.000-08:002010-01-12T14:14:08.496-08:00Dead Blog?I realized my blog is dead because I tried to make it all about my Muslim life, and after the drama settled down, there wasn't much left to write about. So, I'm branching out. I'm going to write about other things, too. Some of these things might piss people off for being ~<span style="font-style: italic;">sinful</span>~, but that's what I choose to write about. As I've said in earlier posts, I really haven't been myself on this blog, and I'm starting to feel stifled. And soooo.<br /><br />I haven't been wearing hijab since the new year/decade, as I previously would have liked. Oops? I just don't feel ready yet. I might someday.<br /><br />I love music. I'm in a musical mood right now. I personally don't think all kinds of music are haraam, but I know a lot of scholars feel it is. If it is a sin, it doesn't seem to be a very major one. It's mentioned in one hadith and mainly in passing, if I remember right? It's grouped together with things which are covered elsewhere and explained in detail, but music doesn't get a big explanation. I could be wrong about this.<br /><br />Even so, blah. It's not something I'm ready to give up now, in the near future, or even ever. It's hard. I don't know what the future brings. Maybe someday, yes, I will be all about the no-music lifestyle. I just don't see it happening yet.<br /><br />My favorite band of all time is U2. (: That's frowned upon by people anyway, because people think they sound stupid and are overplayed and all the songs are the same, etc. Ha. I don't really care! They're my favorite band and have been for five years. I saw them live late last October in Las Vegas. That was aaaawesome. I have tickets to see them again in June with my cousin. I'm trying to study abroad, though, so it might not work out. I'm pretty sure the free-ish Taiwan program is in the summer, and probably includes mid-June. :/<br /><br />I would of course choose STUDYING ABROAD over CONCERT IN THE SAME TOUR I ALREADY SAW A CONCERT IN, but um. . . I'd just feel bad about having to flake out on my cousin, you know? Eh.<br /><br />So in conclusion, I don't have Islamic things to post about and my favorite band is U2.<br /><br />Oh! I bought an awesome book yesterday: <span style="font-style: italic;">The Mother Tongue: English and How it Got That Way</span> by Bill Bryson. It's a fun read. -nerd-Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-75457508474895767712009-12-30T03:36:00.000-08:002009-12-30T03:39:20.303-08:00Spirituality Troubles?I haven't been motivated in a long time, and I've gone from barely practicing to not practicing to wanting to but feeling lost. Oddly, my family drama had no effect on me like this. . . In fact, it made my faith stronger. But then certain internet "celebrities" got me questioning. Or really, the responses to certain celebrities leaving got me questioning. I found it hard to associate myself with a group of people I disagreed with, and. . . I know it's stupid, but it happened.<br /><br />I planned to start wearing hijab starting the new year (keeping with the idea I've had in my mind since I was young that you should start goals at certain points, and that a new year is as fresh of start as any), but now? I have a long way. I need to figure out the basics again. Sort of a personal Islam Renaissance. Does anyone know how I should go about doing this? Have you been in a similar situation before?<br /><br />Thanks muchly. <3Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-25621194198425037802009-12-15T15:50:00.001-08:002009-12-15T15:51:28.536-08:00Inferiority ComplexYou guys are great and I love your comments, and reading your blogs. But I need to take a step back and meet some more moderate or "liberal" or "sinful" Muslims. Every day, I pull up Google Reader, and I am made to feel like a horrible person and that I'm going to hell. I can't take it anymore.<br /><br />I feel like I can't post here as the person I am, or I'll get attacked. Now is that healthy?Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-10575548049529988772009-12-10T23:40:00.000-08:002009-12-10T23:52:22.035-08:00Some Things About MeMy name is Maddie. It's short for Madison, but I posted here as Madiha for a while, and eh. I really just like being called Maddie. I don't like Madison, and Madiha is nicer, but I'm not fond of it either. So, Maddie.<br /><br />I have weak iman, but I'm working on it. . . Sporadically. . . I sometimes go days on end without praying, which I know is bad. I don't want to be told it's bad, because that's obvious. But I would love advice on how to pull through. (: I'm very weak. I didn't buckle during the horrible week I had last week, but when I saw the actions of some Muslims, my faith was shaken. I know that's ridiculous, but I don't know what to do.<br /><br />I'm 19 (my birthday was this last Sunday) and I am a college. . . junior, I believe? I took community college courses for duel credit during my last two years of high school, if you wonder why I'm freshman age and a junior. I should still take 2.5 - 3 years to graduate, though, because the classes I needed to progress in my major weren't offered at the community college. . . Plus, I just recently decided to switch my minor from Anthropology to Spanish. And I actually need to change the focus of my major. I was majoring in writing, but now I'm planning to study linguistics. Shouldn't be that big of a deal, since it's all English. But you still have to make it official. Blah.<br /><br />I'm currently learning Mandarin. It's hard, but I like it. I can read and hear better than I can speak or write. I can never say what a tone is on a word, but I somehow manage to pronounce it right from memory. I don't know how that works. I have a final tomorrow, and this post is procrastination on studying for it. (:<br /><br />Back on being Muslim: I'm slow. I'm a part time prayer, a girl who still needs to make up her Ramadan fasts, and a part time halal eater. At the new year, I plan to be a part time hijabi. The goal is to eventually be full time in all of these, but I don't know when that will happen. I'm considering going back and trying to pray before worrying about anything else. Hmm.<br />I also always forget to say "Bismillah" before eating, and "Alhamdulillah" after. I don't know why. Even when I stare at my plate and think, "It's halal!" (ie: remembering Islam), I always forget to say those. Ugh.<br /><br />I should study.<br /><br />I kind of sort of fail at Hanzi. In previous tests, Li Laoshi (李老师!!!! Look how fancy I am!!! "Teacher Li") always gave us the characters in other spots, so there may be one or two we wouldn't know. But um, not sure if the final will be the same! Blah.<br /><br />I can remember the characters we learned early on. . . WAY early on. I can read pretty much all of them, both knowing the meaning and the pronunciation. But I can't remember how to write. Yeee.Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-41161498758338373572009-12-10T23:17:00.000-08:002009-12-10T23:38:56.492-08:00Eh?I'm staying after all, and my mom is pretending that nothing has happened. It's a bit unsettling. On Monday, I was disowned. On Saturday, I got a call asking what kind of cake I want. Um.<br /><br />Finals are in progress.<br />Effemell. ):<br /><br /><img src="http://chart.apis.google.com/chart?cht=t&chs=440x220&chtm=usa&chf=bg,s,336699&chco=d0d0d0,cc0000&chd=s:999999999999999999999&chld=CADEFLHIIDLAMANVNHNJNYORPATXWAALMSCTVTAZNM" height="220" width="440" /><br />visited 21 states (42%)<br /><a href="http://douweosinga.com/projects/visited?region=usa">Create your own visited map of The United States</a><br /><br />Because LJ is down, lookie! I included car rides, but not plane connections. I don't have conscious memories of some of these states, hurhurhur.<br /><br />我今天晚上不想学中文!!!!<br />(That should be "I don't want to study Chinese tonight," but I probably messed up somewhere. Which is just lovely, since I have a final in about 12.5 hours.)<br />我想睡觉。):Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3204921460458360534.post-3248034859115638712009-12-01T23:33:00.001-08:002009-12-01T23:34:16.422-08:00<3 <3 <3Alhamdullilah, my stepmom and dad still love me and will support me in any way they can.<br /><br />The situation with my mom is worse, but at least I know I have some immediate family to fall back on. (:Maddiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04523076369408421177noreply@blogger.com3